5 days just passed and tomorrow would be the day when I discover my fate - leave or stay.

I seriously don't know which one to choose - leave or stay. I would like to stay, and at the same time, leave!

After some observations, I felt that I'm having my arrow pointed towards LEAVE and I feel that whether I'm around or not, everything would be the same.

Someone said this to me, "I CANNOT find 10 reasons for you to STAY, but, I CAN find 100 reasons for you to LEAVE."

Guess what was my feelings after I heard this?! The arrow that was pointing towards the middle of leave and stay moved a lot towards LEAVE.

I feel that my existence is only visible to four things - my dog, my piano, my room and my close family members. As for the rest, I feel that I'm invisible to them.

Cutting my wrist no longer works for me, so counting it out, I'm only left with two choices - Follow ____ or DIE.

I have only ONE question for A PARTICULAR bunch of people, "Do I really exist in your world?"

Bu guessing, I think that I can have the answers already - NO.

Seriously, I don't think isolating oneself in a corner, crying is a good way for me, but, instead, I want to ground myself.

I HAVE TO start being independent (as in I can do something without being in a group).
I HAVE TO stop trusting or relying on people.
I HAVE TO believe in myself.
I HAVE TO get myself out of the situation I'm in, MYSELF.

That's all for today...

HeLLo... I'm back...

O.o I was so tied up by the Alice-In-Action competition that I even forgot the date of the day since Monday... HaIz... SO stressed... Friday is the rehearsals and Monday is the FINALs...

1E1ers, please support ESSS at TP on Monday can??? We really need more supporters... Haiz...

STRESSED OUT...

Bella...

Yo!

I'm at my grandparents' place now, it's just after I had a sumptious dinner, thanks to my grandfather for cooking my favourite dish, steamed fish with tomato and salted veg.! Oo... YUMMY!

Anyway, I've just finished doing the PowerPoint presentation slides for AIA (Alice In Action)...
Looking back, I spent 4 hours doing the slides and man, I'm sooo tired! Haha...

*sniff*I'm left with just 5 more days to SOMETHING SECRETIVE...

JUST 5 MORE DAYS!!!

*cries...*

HaIz... I'll always remember this,

珍惜现在所拥有的，免得失去了之后，再多么的后悔也没用。

Translate: Treasure whatever you have now, if not, when you lost it in near future, regretting would not help.

HaIz...

Bella...

Yo! Here are the pics I took during the learning journey to Singapore Science Center for the Exhibition: China, 7000 years of innovation.

Enjoy!


Oo... The boys better let Mdm Sabariah take their photo!!!




Off we go!!!




Left to right: Wesley, Yee Jia Min, Cornelius, Xavier




The worksheet that has to be completed... Page one




Page two...




and... page three




Boats that were used then...




Chinese Calligraphy...




Chinese characters for Gunpowder...




Are these pottery?




These ARE potteries...




Some statues for sale...




The difference between books nowadays and last time...




A bridge?




Wah... so hard working... From left to right: Estelle, Yin Yin, Faiqah H., Ain, Azilla




Estelle and Yin Yin so hardworking...




A machine used to make paper...




Olden days paper...




Kite-making...




A pagoda? (or whatever the spelling may be)




THE FIVE ELEMENTS!!! Wood, Fire, Water, Gold and Earth




Birds' Nest




Dragon's Bone




??? What are all these? Pottery?




Back we go!!!




The TWINS... Top: Yoyo Bottom: Jojo




Jammy 'grand-aunt'!!!




Family Photo...

First row (top) (left to right): Yin Yin (3nd granddaughter), Estelle (youngest granddaughter), Michelle (greatgrandmother)

Second row (bottom) (left to right): Jamina (grandaunt), YoYo (grandmother), Bella (oldest granddaugher), Azilla and Faiqah H.(daughter of Yoyo) and Ain (2nd oldest granddaugher)






Bella...

Sharon's Chocolate died on 23rd August 2007.

Always in OUR memory...

Bella.

(P.S. Chocolate is the brown rabbit that used to be in GongShang Primary School's Eco garden, but, for certain reasons, the rabbits could not stay there and Sharon's brother, Samuel volunteered to bring the rabbit back.)

Yo! Below is something I made for 1E1 using Macromedia Fireworks MX 2004...

Enjoy!!!



Please click on the above picture to view actual size (1024 x 768 pixels, can be USED as desktop wallpaper)


SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Hello! I'm back...

Now, I'm at my grandparent's place, just finished having Lunch, using my uncle's laptop... SiAnZ... Still have Maths tuition near ESSS (blk 301, I GUESS) later... Forgot to bring my Mathematics textbook home on Friday... HaIZ...

Anyway, I have a few good news but for certain reasons, I'm not writing them here... Hee Hee X...

Seriously, for SVA (School Video Awards), I really feel that it's gonna be a tough competition beween Infocomm Club and AVA cox we're competiting for the SVA, but, Ms Toh (our trainer) has high expectations on us...

Infocomm, 加油!!!

Have to go now... See ya!

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Hello!!! I'm sooo happy today lor...

HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!!!

HaIz.. Yin Yin keep on 'sabo' me... Score for today: 3v5... 5 = school, Tampines Mart, school foyer...

Hee Hee X!

Anyway, now's Infocomm time...

Needa do the shooting directions and script and I've finished everything already...

BREAK TIME!!!

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Over the past week, I've found out a few things...

Actually, attention seekers are seeking attention because they feel left out and forgotten when some people who are not attention seekers gets all the attention.

Also, I found out that by just speaking your mind, you're actually hurting more and more people, emotionally.

At times, you might be hurting people emotionally without realising it and therefore, causing conflicts and stuff.

Sometimes, when you think you're correct and someone is opposing you, try and be in his or her shoes, and hence, you might know why he or she is opposing you.

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Hello! I'm back...

Sorry, I've not been posting for the past few days... Quite busy with a few things...

Anyway, I just got home and, when I was on the way home, near TNPS, guess who I THINK I saw? -*!!! (cannot tell... ^^)...

Yesterday, watched NDP Live Telecast on Channel 5, kinda boring because watched it before already (I went for the Preview) and... there were 2 screw-ups yesterday, first, the 40 NS Commander repellors were supposed to repel down the bridge without the yellow fireworks, luckily, no one got injured and the 3rd fireworks got fired a little early (say, be 2 seconds?)...

HaIz... Mistakes always happen...

*yawn*... so tired liao... Tamelia is asking me to call her later and I'm gonna do it now...

I'm going to post a few pictures I took when I went to Tampines Mall with Tamelia on Wednesday, 8th August 2007...

Gotta go now!!!

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Yo!!!

I'm at school's library now... Yin Yin wants to stay back to create a blog and she wants to look for 4 pictures for the 'Internet Research Skills' course for SFL next Thursday.

Anyway, on this coming Wednesday (8th August 2007), I MIGHT not be coming to school, reason being, my uncle and his wife-to-be are going to take their local wedding photo shoot and I have to follow along and it starts at 11am, but, school ends at 11, so, Mdm. Sabariah says that I need not need to come to school so I have to ask my parents to write a letter. But, I'm having second thoughts of whether to follow or not to follow my uncle and partner. SHOULD I? I'll tell you my answer tomorrow. :)

HaIZ.... Today, Sharon cannot come my place... 'sniff' :'(

I'm wondering what to do when I go home. Eat lunch, then watch Korean Drama, do English homwork, eat dinner, SLEEP? I don't think so bah... And... I have piano lessons tonight at 6, so, I'd better practice before I'm being lectured by my mother and piano teacher. Btw, not having piano lesson for a month really allowed me to forget everything, so, I've decided not to take the piano exam this year. Maybe next year bah... Since, everything's been too stressful for me, from studies to this and that... HaIZ...

How I wish I could stop everything and relax for a couple of days... Anyway, I've been doing the grounding method the last few days to bring myself back to the present because I've seriously been dreaming and fantasizing tooooooo much (according to Quek Jia Min). I hope all that relaxation (grounding) method can really bring myself back to the present. But, at the some time, those memories keep coming back and I guess I cannot control myself to forget all of them anymore.

Moreover, I've been trying my best to be a really happy person by using my motto 'A smile can keep ALL unhappy things away.'... So, if you see me these few days, pelase remind me to smile more often. (Just joking... )

Gotta go and eat lunch with Yin Yin liao... (my fingers are typing too fast and are getting tired!!! hee hee X!)

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

YO!

Guess what? Today's score is kinda scary...

2 v 7... HaiZ...

It's so difficult to stop keeping track of the scores every weekday...

Anyway, I've heard one song sang by Fish Leong on the radio (Yes 93.3) and I'm hunting everywhere for that song...

I'd better go hunt for that song...

Bye...

SmileZ AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling

Yo! I'm at school's computer lab 4 now... Infocomm!!! Today, Ms Toh said that we're gonna do Videos for the next few weeks... Yipee!!!


Tomorrow, we're going to do Internet Research Skill for SFL and guess what, the 4 trainers are from asknlearn and Ms Toh's going to teach either of the 5 classes (1Es).... er... I hope ... er... nvm...

Hee hee X... The score today is 3v1... Haha... From tomorrow, onwards, I'm not going to care about the score liao... Maybe QJM might help me... Haha... *diao*

And, one very UNLUCKY thing... My SVA Team members are:

-Billy Ko Yan Sheng (DIRECTOR -_-) *GRRR*
-Yin Yin (assist. director)
-me (script writer... :) )
-Jolene (1E5 camera woman) and
-Jun Xian (1E4, assist. cameraman)

hAiZ... I WANT TO CHANGE TEAM MEMBER!!! *sniff* Ha ha...

Gotta go!!!

Smile AlwayZ,
Forever Smiling